Yes, it’s been a long holiday since Apr 5. I went to Lepeh island with friends and coworkers. Here is an awesome pix http://www.flickr.com/photos/25577779@N02/sets/72157604503428771/ Unfortunately I had Pneumonia and ended up staying at the hospital for 5 days. My b/f surprised me by sending a big vase of wild orchids to my room. I guess that was a real cure!! He is so nice and most of all I felt his truely concern about me through the phone. That was just something … I rarely admitted myself the hospital. The funny thing is that I found out that last time I stayed was like 15 years ago and I had the same Pneumonia!! Wow.. I talked to my b/f this morning and he took a day off (cleaning) hahaha .. how cute he is! He sent me the pic of stuff in the fridge and he stacked it nicely. I like it. Oh, yesterday I registered on eBay. Hope it will be another channel for some income after I quit the job. Wish me Luck.
Dream (will) come true April 1, 2008
After a while of running, I felt good about myself, at least, I can feel my heart beat louder after that. It’s this weekend that I will go have fun in the sun (wearing sunblock though!) I try to clear work as much as possible this early week so I will be worry free during the trip. I haven’t packed my bag yet. I think I need some time to think about what I will wear .. like in the morning, evening, … night time. 2-night trip could seem like a week if you keep changing cloth and take pictures! but I’m not sure about this trip cuz we will snorkle a lot and we must be in the water most of the time. Anyway I’ll pack extra cloth.
Oh … last weekend I went to the night bazaar and bought some sample for sales. I let my b/f choose what I should buy more. Here is the link of the picture I took the other night.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/25167755@N03/sets/72157604310844790/
My b/f likes it so I feel good about that. Well … this just an opportunity we can try on. If it’s going well, maybe we start to sell on the website. But that is another challenge cuz I need to know how to advertise the website or noone will click or visit. … ahh I think too further. I don’t even go on step one yet!! (take it easy, Wynn..) Next step would be to quit the job professionally and book a flight and let the plane take me to my b/f’s arms again.
Getting Fit !! March 18, 2008
It’s been months for not exercising. Now it’s time to restart and it was hard… I think the hardest thing when you wanna start doing something is when you start. Anyway I came across that moment and now I will try to stick with it. I listen to the radio and they say that if you wanna do something in routine, you have to stick with it continuously for at least 4 times. Today is second time and it’s going well. Hope I still have enough energy for the rest of the week.
I feel like my new life is getting close to start and I feel good about it. Though I know I lost some good things but something better is await for me. And I have faith in that. We can’t have it all in the real world. And life is short. I’d better start doing something I feel happy. This has been the most difficult decision in my life … it’s not easy but I will go for what I believe .. what I feel. Alright I think I’m tired now and ready to hit the hay. Hope the weather is good tomorrow so I can run again 
Time change but feeling stronger March 9, 2008
It’s been days I haven’t updated my diary. Another week passed by but it was a dizzy week. I am very well but just tired from work. Anyway this weekend makes me feel better. I lit the candle all over my room feeling like spa and I ate lots of food (which I don’t usually eat on weekdays) and thinking of my b/f every second..like what he is doing right now…he eats something yet or is he tired… thinking of his smiling face just makes my tiredness go away. I miss resting my head on his shoulder and holding his hand when driving. I watched Oprah show and Celine Dion was the guest. She sang a new single, Taking Chances. I think the meaning of this song is inspiring and reminds me that life is short and we should find happiness and make ones we care happy. Is this just what we all need to do?
Oh.. today is the day to adjust time again. So I can easily look at my clock and know what time on the other side of the world. I just wish I didn’t have to adjust time … because we are together at the same time same place. For me time changes but love gets stronger. I miss you, Scott. anyway I gotta prepare the package to send stuff to him tomorrow. Hope he gets it in a few day.
March 1, 2008
oh … finally it’s Saturday. Yesterday I got home late cuz it was monthend. I didn’t do much today just wanna rest reading newspaper that I have it delivered everyday but didn’t have time to read it. I usually just read the title when I get it… now I have time to browse for business, magazine, or travel and recommended restaurant section. There are lots of new restaurants and they’re hip (wishing my b/f could go explore those with me) well.. my mom is in hospital again but she is fine. I guess she’s just tired plus the bad weather we’ve had recently. Summer is coming and I will be on the beach next month. That (might) be the last trip with my coworkers. So I will be making good memory. I feel like I’m sailing in the middle of the river waiting for the time the wind is weak and I’ll continue sailing to the other side.
My b/f called while I was in the shower and he’s with Maddy. They are waiting for the carwash. That really reminds me the time kissing with my b/f there. I wish I could join.
A day in the office February 28, 2008
A few sentence can make someone happy? It does for me. Every time I hear the alarm sound from my computer that I’ve got mail, I drop everything and open it up asap… read every single word… I can almost feel it without interpretting into my language
This paragraph is for Onangi. I love him so much. I pad his head every morning before going to work if I’m not too late. I believe animal is a pure cure. Anytime I feel stressful or worried I always play with animal (just don’t poop on me … hahaha) I love you Onangi.
I felt a bit dizzy today so I decided not to have coffee to make my brain more confusing. My world was spinning a bit when I got up (did I drink last night??….NOOOOO.. I didn’t) maybe it’s work sick! any symptom without a clue I assume it’s work sick! [FACT, Mostly it goes away when stepping out of office] I’ve already discussed this with my coworkers and we all agree. Work is good and okay.. or bad for me some day. Many times it really make me happy and proud of myself but occasionally it makes me feel like … what am I doing here…seriously? Luckily I have someone that makes my everything okay and I have my strength once again. Oh.. tomorrow is Friday (monthend) hope everything goes WELL.
New routine February 26, 2008
I feel like I am in control today. I started my day with a free cup of caramel macchiato cuz I am a member of a new coffeeshop, TRUE COFFEE. The membership is THB300 ($9) and I get 3 free cups after that I get 30% off every purchase. Pretty good, huh? I Everything is in my sight and in order (is it supposed to be like this everyday, Wynn??) I organize, and relax at the same time. Possibly, it is almost time for bonus!!!! hahaha … I called my b/f twice. Don’t know if he had a plan for going out tonight. It becomes usual when I get home listening to the Internet radio Lite FM. 102.9 from St. Pual, MN. They annouce the road condition like .. there’s a traffic on 35W and Dale st. going about 25 mph or.. today is 10 below and snow at night or… iceskating at Xcel energy center… that’s something that makes me feel closer to my b/f life. Many times they play our song “Everything”. If I am in front of my Mac, I usually open up my b/f’s version that he sang at John’s basement
Easy like Sunday Morning … February 24, 2008
Another typical Sunday again. Nothing planned to do today. Just watched cable and got out for Japanese food at Fuji with mom ‘n dad. My b/f called me from the hospital cuz he got called. I was sitting at the back seat in a car with mom ‘n dad. It’s weird I couldn’t say “I Love you” I feel like something misssing but I think he knew I said it quietly in my heart Last night he told me about our plan that it might not be the same cuz a couple was fighting now. So my future is kinda blurry but he told me not to worry. There must be some other ways to make it happen. I believe so too … sometimes I think too much that it comes to the point when I wonder why we have to have regulations, separation, discrimination. Why can’t we just live peacefully? Oh.. gosh.. I must be too naive thinking that way if I tell anyone about this. But I DO hope some day it will be … like the song “Imagine” 
On and on February 23, 2008
It’s always good for Saturday morning. I woke up with the voice of my b/f. He called me from a bar. I went to visit my grandpa/ma with mom and my sister today and had dinner at Chockchai steakhouse. Got home and missing my b/f again. We haven’t talked much this week cuz he works all day so I email him instead. I downloaded a soundtrack from the movie, Enchanted. The song names “So close” and its meaning just hits me. it made me teary thinking of my b/f. I gonna end ths with the touching lyrics …
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
… f r i d a y … February 22, 2008
I usually have good Friday but today is not one of them. It was rough that I just program myself to just finish my day and get my butt out. I think everyone has this moment so it’s normal (think positive +++…Wynnnnn) I was a long day and I haven’t called my b/f yet due to the freaking office phone calls coming over and over. Thai Baht appreciates this week so lots of clients decide to hedge their future inflow with the bank. Though I am not directly involved witht the booking and settlement, I have lots of work to do after that for controlling purpose. And … it kinda piss me off knowing that I went to business school in USA when THB/USD was about 44 and now it’s about 32-33. Anyway I would miss lots of good things and experience if I didn’t go there. One thing that I learned was to find myself. Cuz I had to decide everything my own, I start to know myself better and better. I was raised in family that almost everything is done and decided by others so when I was all by myself I learned a lot to live, to think, to follow my dream. It might sound weird to you but for a guy who had lived with parents for the whole life, that was a new world. Anyway, I did make some business contact in the Night Bazaar. We talked about selling stuff and I hope I can make it happen. Hope is in the air … I am breathing. Now another blong is growing http://awesomeworld.wordpress.com I linked some Amazong Widgets there hopefully someone go fishing on it and buy it through my link. P.S I love you, hun
