Getting Fit !! March 18, 2008

It’s been months for not exercising. Now it’s time to restart and it was hard… I think the hardest thing when you wanna start doing something is when you start. Anyway I came across that moment and now I will try to stick with it. I listen to the radio and they say that if you wanna do something in routine, you have to stick with it continuously for at least 4 times. Today is second time and it’s going well. Hope I still have enough energy for the rest of the week.

I feel like my new life is getting close to start and I feel good about it. Though I know I lost some good things but something better is await for me. And I have faith in that. We can’t have it all in the real world. And life is short. I’d better start doing something I feel happy. This has been the most difficult decision in my life … it’s not easy but I will go for what I believe .. what I feel. Alright I think I’m tired now and ready to hit the hay. Hope the weather is good tomorrow so I can run again

Time change but feeling stronger March 9, 2008

It’s been days I haven’t updated my diary. Another week passed by but it was a dizzy week. I am very well but just tired from work. Anyway this weekend makes me feel better. I lit the candle all over my room feeling like spa and I ate lots of food (which I don’t usually eat on weekdays) and thinking of my b/f every second..like what he is doing right now…he eats something yet or is he tired… thinking of his smiling face just makes my tiredness go away. I miss resting my head on his shoulder and holding his hand when driving. I watched Oprah show and Celine Dion was the guest. She sang a new single, Taking Chances. I think the meaning of this song is inspiring and reminds me that life is short and we should find happiness and make ones we care happy. Is this just what we all need to do?

Oh.. today is the day to adjust time again. So I can easily look at my clock and know what time on the other side of the world. I just wish I didn’t have to adjust time … because we are together at the same time same place. For me time changes but love gets stronger. I miss you, Scott. anyway I gotta prepare the package to send stuff to him tomorrow. Hope he gets it in a few day.

March 1, 2008

oh … finally it’s Saturday. Yesterday I got home late cuz it was monthend. I didn’t do much today just wanna rest reading newspaper that I have it delivered everyday but didn’t have time to read it. I usually just read the title when I get it… now I have time to browse for business, magazine, or travel and recommended restaurant section. There are lots of new restaurants and they’re hip (wishing my b/f could go explore those with me) well.. my mom is in hospital again but she is fine. I guess she’s just tired plus the bad weather we’ve had recently. Summer is coming and I will be on the beach next month. That (might) be the last trip with my coworkers. So I will be making good memory. I feel like I’m sailing in the middle of the river waiting for the time the wind is weak and I’ll continue sailing to the other side.

My b/f called while I was in the shower and he’s with Maddy. They are waiting for the carwash. That really reminds me the time kissing with my b/f there. I wish I could join.